Right now my thoughts are all over the place....emotionally I am a mess. And that is ok....Today the unexpected adventure closed one chapter and begins another one. I had an appointment with my oncologists. Today was the day that I was to get the results back from the CT scan that I had on Monday.
The scan was to be a baseline for the future....that was the hope. But as you know in all things medical, things don't always go as planned, or at least how we plan them. And we certainly cannot depend that everything will follow the prescribed path.....So I had been waiting with hopeful anticipation for the results. Honestly I did not dare to assume that all would be well.
Last week I found myself being emotional at some pretty silly things. But also remember last week was Holy Week and I am always emotional that week. So yeah....it has been an emotional roller coaster. Cancer is more than a physical disease....there is the emotional aspect that wants to steal hope and send you into a deep, dark abyss. It is a struggle to keep out of that place. And that is why you all have been so important to me. God has sent you to keep me from falling off the edge and falling into that dark place. Attitude really is important.
So this morning we met with the Oncologists.....We received fantastic news.....Remember tho that at the beginning they told us that I will never be cured. The cancer can go into remission. But the statistics say that the kind of cancer that I have will eventually come back....I am a lifer.
One more thing....When I was there 3 weeks ago, they decided to do the genetic testing for ovarian cancer....the BRCA gene. I don't have either one of them. So that means I did not have cancer because it was handed down to me genetically....but better yet, I will not pass it on to my children or grandchildren. Good news. But if we are looking for a reason why I got cancer, there is none. I was not at risk. It just happened.
So now for what you have been waiting for! For now the cancer is in remission.....Some of it is gone! Even the little spot near my lungs and heart that we were so worried about. Thanks be to God!!!! Next steps are to have the port taken out-next week. And then checks every three months. We will continue to pray that the cancer stays in remission.
Thank you! Thank you for being there! Praying for me, holding me up, taking care of me, giving me positive words.....for that I am eternally grateful and humbled. I will never be able to thank you enough or repay your kindness. I have experienced grace.
To my family, friends, and partners in ministry....this is for you! Enjoy!
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O sing to the Lord a new song, for he has done marvelous things. His right hand and his holy arm have gotten him victory. Psalms 98:1
I'm so happy for you! Your positive attitude throughout your struggles have been an inspiration. Love you lots!
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